I've grown up in a Christian Home for all of my life, but I am just now really attempting to find God. I have had an up and down experience with God I'm saved then I'm not. Or I'm saved and then sin enters and it breaks up all the ground I had just cleared. I don't believe that once you are saved you are always saved. For many of you that may seem strange. I simply believe that a Christian is one who follows Christ and if you aren't following Him you aren't a Christian. Simple and complex all at the same time. I have a pattern with God. Me and Him we do okay then he asks for something for a deeper relationship with me and that freaks me out. I decide to try but then I can't follow through so now I'm drifting disobeying and disobedience leads to sin. Then I'm sorry and I don't want to leave God so I apologize and determine to do better the next time. But the next time is like the time before and the time before that. God has been patient and kind with me, but every time I choose to disobey, to sin, I make it harder for myself to obey the next time. So I'm on a fast to discover God and his mission for my life. I'm determined 2012 won't be like every other year. He saved me for greater things and I have to figure out what those are. Pray my strength, as they say. :)
