Caught Up

I got caught up today in a different universe. First I was reading The Time Traveler's Wife. It's a sad story. Spoiler!!! He's going to die. He is a man that is pulled into his future and his past at random. And his most ardent wish is to just stay here in the present. I began thinking that we, I, do that without flying through the space time continium.
We are here in the present, but we are regretting or glorifying our past wishing for our future and ignoring our present. We sit daily in time. We can choose to live in the present, but we don't we run from it, we are scared of it. It's too much all this nowness. It hurts sometimes. We fantasize about a future that if we were to have we would have to work for in the present. Because of that we so often try to live outside of now. We run away from it like the mailman from the pitbull. But sometimes we are confronted with our present without escape and that is when miracles can happen. I am 25 and I have just finished my masters. I am pretty free to do as I please, but I'm still running from this present wishing for a future that I'm too scared to work for. I want to live in this present moment, I want to run into to it and not from it, my hope is that this limited time I have now I won't waste. Before I have more responsiblity and no time to think I want to look at myself in the present all that I am all that I'm not. I want to look and stop running stop wishing, stop wanting. Just do it, Just live. To expereince all that God has in store for me the ugly, painful, growing moments, and the exquistely beautiful ones also. In essence, to walk through the fire if He wants me to.

Mama Mia!!!!

So I just had the best time ever. Really, I and my roommate should have a TV show. I know everyone says that, but it's true. We watched Romancing the Stone and had a great time suspending disbelief and laughing at all the 80's fashion mistakes. Then the best part of the night. I decided to sing some of the songs from Mama Mia!! I had a blast!!!!! My roommate and I sang, my other two friends just watched us like bumps on a log. My goodness. And I of course flitted around the living room to the tunes of Super Trouper and Dancing Queen among others. It was the best time I've had in a long while. Normally, I do that kind of stuff with my sister so it was a nice moment. It was stress free and I felt like I was with my sisters. That was the most fun I've had in forever. It was great. We put the DVD on sing-along and just went crazy. One snag, our other roommate came in later and I don't think we were very quiet. I'll have to apologize in the morning, but it was so much fun!!!!